closed down.

this blog is going to closed down under certain untold reasons. sorry about that readers. i just dont think i'll need to blog anymore. :) btw, im going to create a new msn account. i'll tell you guys only if you guys ask me. have a nice day. :)

ignored.

as title said. lol. i R igonored. fuck that. :) hahaha. maybe its jsut a sign that you show me that you dont love me anymore and want me to keep away. if it is so, i will not bother you anymore. but dont ignore me. lolz. you could just tell me, but not ignore me. cos when you do that, i will hate you. or thats what you want? lol. i cant read your mind anymore, i dont know what you want. and so do you. :)

the blog after KK.

hey my blog readers. sorry for not updating my blog. 'cause im off to KK since thursday. just got back today itself. hahaa. oh well. the trip was safe and BORING. and oh fuck. i dont wanna go back to KK anymore. hahaa. 'cause it sucks. :pp

and yeah, im quite sad in the moment. and disappointed. i feel so heartbreaking. and the reason. i dont wanna write it out. but imma give hint, deal. if you know what it is. :) k lah. gotta sleeep. nites.

DIE DIE DIE! :(

this morning dont feel like waking up. eventho i got enough rest, enough sleep. but im just.. not willing to open my eyes. trying to go back to sleep. but i cant. so yeah, ended up coming online. sighs. i dont wanna recall the things about last night. :( my heart felt so empty. hais. suddenly, i hope that im blind and deaf. telling you that i love you, everything i wanna tell you. and i wont hear your rejects and watching you turn away.. i really feel like dying. :(

i always hope that will happen. but its just hopeless. i really hate that shit.

conflictions of feelings.

guys, im back to blogging again.

im feeling. confusing. im happy. but yet im kind of worrying for my tasks. well, i dont know what the hell its going to be. but i just feel like i got many things to do. just a plenty of stuffs. and i feel like im so damn timeless. its like im going to die soon or whatever it is. im feeling stress in this very moment. or maybe im just thinking too much? O.O but i seldom think this way. so yeah, i felt weird, what a serious 'strange' feeling it is. i really dont like this feeling. its pulling me down. i was happy shit in the afternoon. but why now?

another one. its. about my love shits. its been months already. and we're still like, ex-that-still-love-each-other. i dont like this kinda relationship. and i dont even know why am i still wasting my time waiting replies, feedbacks all those. its tragic for me. i love you, maybe you know that, and you too. if not, its, you know. and you're playing with me. but please, dont let me caught that. but i trust you wont. afterall, i think you were just busy with cousins around. bullshit around and loiter around. so yeah. i dont care anymore. when you text, i'll just reply. when you dont, i'll just mad. haha. its like my routine, wait and wait, reply and wait then mad. haha. i know it sounds stupid. but im willing to be your fool. the voices deep in my heart has been spoken out. i hope baby, you did know what i really want. you dont wanna accept me, its okay. you could just turn away and walk out of my life. but if you're willing to stay, dont ignore me like this. i mean, just dont make me wait you, i dont like waitings. and, im tired of jealousing. i told you, my temper aint good, its evil. if you made me jealous, i will take revenge. i am childish, immature. i do admit. but i hate taking revenge on you. its kinda, lack of care and full of ignorance. its not what i want, never it'll be. i hope you understand, if you read this.




im done.

the aniversary!

yo guys! hhaha. finally another update. xP

these days so bored. nothing to do ahh~ everyday no study and all. so fan loh. =( then she never reply my message. =.= just yesterday, break record. she keep reply me ohh. xDD happy lorhz me. haha.

and oh yeahh. yesterday, i go ccms, the school aniversary. =P haha. quite alot of things happen. =/ and i dont wanna mention. HAHA. but theres something funny! LOLZ. =PP

GG lorhzzz. dont feel like blogging ohh. =/ later then i blog again. hahaha. xP

another post again. =P

hey there everyone!

i think i might stop blogging for awhile.. you know. i just couldnt stop fb-ing if i blog. =/ so yeah.. sorry for that. i'll probably blog in the weekend. haha. =P i dont like torturing myself for the whole damn week. =P so yeah.

anyways. today quite normal. haha. doreen texted me in the morning, but i couldnt reply. 'cause nada credit. and kinda dont know how to use the fone. LOL. sorry. my current fone very noobiie. xP haha.

so computer class = free period. hehe. dont need to read those complicated stuffs. @.@ but gonna memorize them all. fuck that. =.= hate to memorize all those stuffs. =.= i need a tuition teacher for that. =/

then errr~ something about me and her, you would like to know? =P haha. nothing much. still same, dont reply, if not then reply dao lcly. =.= so yeah. im tired of texting her. im kinda tired of texting her. its like, im so sendiri. =.= so yeah.. i wrote her a letter too. =/ thinking if i could ever regret? =/ but nevermind.. since i gave it to her friend. suan liao lahh. =/

and what.. some news about jester? hmmm.. he's quite good. just this morning, sprained his leg? LOL. cant imagine how a dog sprained his leg. XD thats what my bro told me. so i just quoted it and paste here. wtf. xD and he's now heading to seria. ahaha.

okay okay. gonna stop here. next update will be on Sunday. =P

11th October and 12th October

sorry for the late updating. =P

so guys, i'll start with 11th October. =)

alright, as usual, woke up late then went to bath. ready for the out. after lunch, then i went to mall. just to meet doreen and hang out with my bud, Roderick. xD then he was late. omg. waited him for about 45 minutes. =.= then yeah.. went to pizza hut to search for Doreen Su Min Soon! hell damn it, she lied to me. =.= she say she was as tall as jolene is. but... xDD same as me kali ah. made me keep on looking at those tall ones. ==

then after we met at the mall. then we went to watch movie. they went to cinema to buy the ticket, 'The Unbelieveable', and Roderick and I actually wanna watch some other movies. but i kinda forgot the name. =.= then doreen msg me asked, whether i wanna join them or not. lol. so yeah, i bought the same ticket as them. then after bought the ticket then i went to first floor to search for fiona. then omg. shes becoming more and more pretty! xD she pinch my face. =/ pain tu. =/ then chat a little then i went for my movie.

that movie was kinda funy, altho its a horror type of movie. =P but quite a comedy for me. =PP then i watched doreen covered her eyes and all, omg, so lui! hahaha. then i purposely went to her front and sat there. xD then she show me she chat with her. to make me jealous as well. =.= but shes msging with me too? LOL. but yeah, just a little. then til halfway of the movie, joan texted me, ask me to meet her in iora. so yeah, i walked out and headed to iora. i walked to her, and she cant even recognised me. =.= hurts!

when i say hi, she was like, 'oh sha! aiya, mei you kan dao ni de?', the she hugged me. =P i miss the huggies and all. haha. miss joan so much. =.= i think i didnt see her for months! =.= ever since she left CCMS and went to SMS. so yeah.. i guess its months. then same, chat a little, then she had to go back, 'cause the auntie wanted to go for a party. so yeah... just 5 minutes. =.=

afterthat, went back to cinema, to watch my so-called-horror. continue laughing again. hahaha. roderick was same laughing too. xD just doreen there scare like what. =.= after the movie. Roderick decided to follow my car back. so i texted doreen, ask her whether wanna watch another movie or not. she said, yeah but i treat her. =.= so alright, i treat her, bought her a KID ticket. =PP then went to watch 'Surrogates'. haha. i sat with her in the cinema. keep on disturbing her in the cinema. talked with her and all. and fuck, she pinched me eh, mahai.. =.= its x10 pain than jolene hits me. omfg. =.= and yeah, watched she argue with her sister, really roflmao. xD so lui also the sister talked. =PP so yeah, laughing and all. xDD

after the movie, Roderick and I went to jolibee for our dinner, we both were broke. bankrupt already. =.= after jolibee. then went back home. lol. my bro said that rod's voice is so soft. he cant even hear him. loool. xDD then i slept earlier that night. =PP thats all.. xD


next.. 12th Ocotber.

yesterday was a disaster day. =.= nothing happened in school. lolz. was texting with doreen and roderick when im having class at school. but stopped texting with roderick when im having english. lol. xD i forgot to reply. haha. i texted with doreen from school til i got back home and even in the afternoon. =.= dont know got what so many to text. =.=

in the afternoon, i went to shop with my brother, he wanna buy some sayur and all. =.= then i accompany him lo. went to SKH then to KULAP. =.= and finally, i got back home. xD and thats the nightmare started.

i played with jester. then quite fun.. haha. i took my phone out and stared at it, i wondered, why theres no message? =.= i was kinda mad at first. no idea why. maybe mad 'cause she didnt reply me since she already recharge so hell long time ago?! and she didnt even text me. :@ but anyway, very fast im calm. =P 'cause theres no point for her to text me as well, we are not couple anymore so yeah.. so i on my ebuddy, i asked her, 'dont reply me?', she say, 'reply what?'. and there it goes. im so mad. =.= that i even threw my phone on the ground. it was badly damaged. =.= so now im using a noobie fone. lol.

then i stopped play with jester. went to online using my computer. =.= chat with doreen and her. i was so effing mad, i never behave like that before. she said her phone was 'lost'. and i assume thats just a lie. maybe she just dont wanna reply me or whatever. so i got mad, i reply mean-ly. shes making me feel like shes playing me. just like how my ex did. thats sucks. seriously sucks.

so yeah.. that time i mad like sjb. =.= talking so hell mean. and scolded someone. dont wanna mention who is dat. then someone, her friend. added me and telling me her stuffs. and i dont know should i trust her or not. i was confused. doreen say its not true and shes not sure. then rach say its definitely not true, so yeah. i believe of it. then after some time. i got calm. and its in the night time. and i gone offline, without saying bye and all.

finally, went inside my room, do the documentation and some homework. afterthat, i slept at around 9.31pm. guess i played too much. hahaha.

alright. thats all. i'll post again later. for today's. =)

its all about Jester

today i skipped school. =) not at all happy about it. 'cause i have to go to hospital for a check up. and yeah. something suck happened. arghs.. i rejected a god damn *********. so now i have to eat those stupid medicines and all. dont know how long i can stand all these. sighs.

after the check up. then i went back home and play with jester awhile. feed him eat and myself. then play a little with him too. then suddenly thought of his vaccination. so took his card and check the second shot's date. lol. its expired. =.= thats why he is so not active. =.= the tummy big like what. LOL. so we took him to petlink at around 2.30. then the doctor was like. saying he will cry and all. i mean jester. but he didnt loh. =.= like so relax pun. =.= so we brought him home afterthat.

then when reached home. after threw him back to my sis for jaga awhile. then my bro n i went out again. go testdrive some cars at uncle peter house. the day suddenly rain. =.= then went back home. dats the worst part. =( jester dont want all of us to carry him. he was like shouting, crying and barking at us when we try to carry him. then he even wanna bite me. =( so sad. so we just put him back to his bed, let him sleeep. maybe he jsut started to feel pain. about the vaccination. so yeah. imma play with him tomorrow. =P

after all these. yet and not least. my beloved baby. =P i texted her, to wish her good luck in her dancing today. hope it works for her. =/ was missing her so much huh today. just dont know why. kinda weird. =P not at all bad mood today. kinda hyper. hahaha. hope she is too? =P despise the feeling of nervous for the dancing part. hehe.

tomorrow im going out again. yeah. should say again. haha. gonna meet my joan and fiona tomorrow!! (A) miss them alot!! finally some seria kia faces! hehehe. see bandar ppl, see dao omg. @.@ makes me miss seria more. T.T miss all those times in ccms. =( those escaping classes and meals when classes goin on. and quarrel with teachers. =( sighs.

k lah. gonna stop here liao. kinda sleepy. =P

some weird feelings.

hey there! :D

today is such a sunny and wet day. =P dont ya think so? =P sunny in bandar and wet in seria. xD

this morning, i plan to sleep til 12 something. but maybe school mood or something, awake in 6. =.= then sleep back, woke up at 10.25 finally. xD then msg my biie. ( still my ex. fyi. LOL. ) then eat my breakfast. =P afterthat, pla with dee dee awhile. shes so funny. keep on falling down. hahaha. i put her on my bed. she just sleep there. so cute. =PP

after all these. i went to mall. bro planning to cut his hair at alan there. then scare this scare that. so boh jadi. haha. at mall, i saw jasmine and her bf. haha. kinda sweet. and im so effing envy! @.@ how i wish i could....... you know. xD i just didnt do that for such a long time. =( after mall, went to my beloved jaya to buy my love sweet QQ yam. xD i miss that stupid shake or whatever it is. haha. didnt drink that for a long time tooo. i think, i didnt drink dat for a day. OMG! after a day, im so damn craving for it. =P

then afterthat, i went back to seria. just to take my add maths book and some clothes. =P kinda lack of clothes. =P gonna cheat somemore. HEHE. with my add maths ex.book, 'cause many problems i did in my previous school. no need do like zik. xD

when im back, yeah, in my seria house. i was like, O.O!! why its like dump? LOL. xDD but good that, everything is still in right order. =P im loving it. haha. then my bro n i, break my mother's piggy bank. we count d coins and all. fuck man. all the coins is about 92 dollars or more. @.@ i was like so, .___. HAHA. xD

then horz. i dont feel sad anymore. =P should congrats me yeah man. xD 'cause, i just dont feel that we're broken up. i can feel that, shes with my beat, yeah, my every single heart beat. =P maybe its my 'zhi zuo duo qing', haha. but i hope its not? x) i love love love love you my ting! =PPP hpoing that she would reply any of my msg, but she didnt lorhz. maybe low credit or dont wanna reply. haha. GG loh if dont wanna reply me. i will be so dead. xDD

another highlight. im going out on sunday. haha. anyone wanna join me? =P i might meet joan. oh damn. i miss her man. i didnt see her around for like months! even when im in seria, we're just like opposite-school-mates. we didnt get to contact or speak or even look! so yeah. i do miss her alot. =P my sister-darling marhz. HEHEHE. kinda excited. =P to see her mushy hair. LOL.

alright.. gonna stop here liao. ciaoz.

first day of tuition!

hey there! =P

today is such a 'gan jiong' day. xD know why? 'cause today is my first day of tuition. lol. really kik man. haha. abit kiok kiok d. xP but quite fun.. altho theres nothing to do with me, just listening they talk and all, very funny. =X

today im so late to school. =S last night staying up late. missing her and doing homework. =) so yeahh. slept at 3 something. then today woke up at 5.35, by my alarm. then i went back to sleep again. and yeah. the worst part. woke up at 7am. =.= no time for my breakfast and all. having gastric at school. GG. =P

then i thought today is having some school photo taking or something? haha. someone told me that. but i think maybe it's just rumors out there. so i dont really care about it. today at school quite fun. people were going crazy. hehe. so i laugh alot. and play games with diley. xD then there are homework for today again! omg. but im not gonna do it today! wanna sleep. =P very tired. hehe. tomorrow gonna turn off everything. lock my door. and sleep til i song! XD

and another surprising thingy. =P she chat with me just now. omg! i was like, AHHH!! xD seriously, i did screamed out. HEHE. i know it sounds sissy, but yeah. =P i was just, too happy and all. but i guess i made her got mad. =( feels so sad about it. =( i ruined our conversation. T.T wanna cry liao lorhz. =( hais. hoping this would be a great start for us, but i just ruined it like shit? =(

hais. i'll stop here. update again next time. =P

Some fooling perhaps.

woops. a brand new blog again yeahh. been busy with exams and all, tio people say i create blog lai gao lin. haha. but yeah guys, just to kill time. =P i've got nothing to do, so just create a blog and put in some effort to kill time. LOLZ. anyways. i guess i'll be free like bird, so i decided to create a new one. =) i'll update everytime when i get to touch my comp. =P

so a news break. =)

our beloved teddy is single now. haha. i know im not always beloved, but who cares. =P my blog what. x)

haha. im so seriously dumped. not getting ashame by that anyways. =) i always agree with all love quotes, like, promises are meant to be broken, love is like maths and all. haha. its just so true, dont you think so? =P

today is the 5th day of our broke up. im still sad? yeah, i guess so. its just too sudden. i should say, im still in shock perhaps? =/ we're like, no contact and all. then a message, telling me wanted to be friends. so yeah.. all beggings, pleasings and all, just doesnt work. the reason is just.. i dont know.. aiiks. so sad man. =( i just dont think i'll ever get over it. its just sucks. im saving all our messages, from the start. =P and it was like 6000+ messages. i just dont like people to delete it for me, so yeah. i delete all of them myself. i should say.. im kinda regret now? there's NOTHING for me to revise of our relationship.

perhaps, im just treating you too bad. thats why you chose to leave. the greatest possibility among all. =) sighs. you just dont understand. i would do anything just to make you stay. maybe you understand all these, just dont love me anymore? =( sadssss**

ahhyeahh.. another news, i just moved. =) to Spg 69-13, No *, Kiarong. =P anyone visiting? LOLZ. i would like to invite bros to come over. maybe when the bball stuffs is done. =P

another highlight, Happy Birthday to Jasmine Liang. (A)