closed down.

this blog is going to closed down under certain untold reasons. sorry about that readers. i just dont think i'll need to blog anymore. :) btw, im going to create a new msn account. i'll tell you guys only if you guys ask me. have a nice day. :)

ignored.

as title said. lol. i R igonored. fuck that. :) hahaha. maybe its jsut a sign that you show me that you dont love me anymore and want me to keep away. if it is so, i will not bother you anymore. but dont ignore me. lolz. you could just tell me, but not ignore me. cos when you do that, i will hate you. or thats what you want? lol. i cant read your mind anymore, i dont know what you want. and so do you. :)

the blog after KK.

hey my blog readers. sorry for not updating my blog. 'cause im off to KK since thursday. just got back today itself. hahaa. oh well. the trip was safe and BORING. and oh fuck. i dont wanna go back to KK anymore. hahaa. 'cause it sucks. :pp

and yeah, im quite sad in the moment. and disappointed. i feel so heartbreaking. and the reason. i dont wanna write it out. but imma give hint, deal. if you know what it is. :) k lah. gotta sleeep. nites.

DIE DIE DIE! :(

this morning dont feel like waking up. eventho i got enough rest, enough sleep. but im just.. not willing to open my eyes. trying to go back to sleep. but i cant. so yeah, ended up coming online. sighs. i dont wanna recall the things about last night. :( my heart felt so empty. hais. suddenly, i hope that im blind and deaf. telling you that i love you, everything i wanna tell you. and i wont hear your rejects and watching you turn away.. i really feel like dying. :(

i always hope that will happen. but its just hopeless. i really hate that shit.

conflictions of feelings.

guys, im back to blogging again.

im feeling. confusing. im happy. but yet im kind of worrying for my tasks. well, i dont know what the hell its going to be. but i just feel like i got many things to do. just a plenty of stuffs. and i feel like im so damn timeless. its like im going to die soon or whatever it is. im feeling stress in this very moment. or maybe im just thinking too much? O.O but i seldom think this way. so yeah, i felt weird, what a serious 'strange' feeling it is. i really dont like this feeling. its pulling me down. i was happy shit in the afternoon. but why now?

another one. its. about my love shits. its been months already. and we're still like, ex-that-still-love-each-other. i dont like this kinda relationship. and i dont even know why am i still wasting my time waiting replies, feedbacks all those. its tragic for me. i love you, maybe you know that, and you too. if not, its, you know. and you're playing with me. but please, dont let me caught that. but i trust you wont. afterall, i think you were just busy with cousins around. bullshit around and loiter around. so yeah. i dont care anymore. when you text, i'll just reply. when you dont, i'll just mad. haha. its like my routine, wait and wait, reply and wait then mad. haha. i know it sounds stupid. but im willing to be your fool. the voices deep in my heart has been spoken out. i hope baby, you did know what i really want. you dont wanna accept me, its okay. you could just turn away and walk out of my life. but if you're willing to stay, dont ignore me like this. i mean, just dont make me wait you, i dont like waitings. and, im tired of jealousing. i told you, my temper aint good, its evil. if you made me jealous, i will take revenge. i am childish, immature. i do admit. but i hate taking revenge on you. its kinda, lack of care and full of ignorance. its not what i want, never it'll be. i hope you understand, if you read this.




im done.