conflictions of feelings.

guys, im back to blogging again.

im feeling. confusing. im happy. but yet im kind of worrying for my tasks. well, i dont know what the hell its going to be. but i just feel like i got many things to do. just a plenty of stuffs. and i feel like im so damn timeless. its like im going to die soon or whatever it is. im feeling stress in this very moment. or maybe im just thinking too much? O.O but i seldom think this way. so yeah, i felt weird, what a serious 'strange' feeling it is. i really dont like this feeling. its pulling me down. i was happy shit in the afternoon. but why now?

another one. its. about my love shits. its been months already. and we're still like, ex-that-still-love-each-other. i dont like this kinda relationship. and i dont even know why am i still wasting my time waiting replies, feedbacks all those. its tragic for me. i love you, maybe you know that, and you too. if not, its, you know. and you're playing with me. but please, dont let me caught that. but i trust you wont. afterall, i think you were just busy with cousins around. bullshit around and loiter around. so yeah. i dont care anymore. when you text, i'll just reply. when you dont, i'll just mad. haha. its like my routine, wait and wait, reply and wait then mad. haha. i know it sounds stupid. but im willing to be your fool. the voices deep in my heart has been spoken out. i hope baby, you did know what i really want. you dont wanna accept me, its okay. you could just turn away and walk out of my life. but if you're willing to stay, dont ignore me like this. i mean, just dont make me wait you, i dont like waitings. and, im tired of jealousing. i told you, my temper aint good, its evil. if you made me jealous, i will take revenge. i am childish, immature. i do admit. but i hate taking revenge on you. its kinda, lack of care and full of ignorance. its not what i want, never it'll be. i hope you understand, if you read this.




im done.